Wednesday, November 19, 2008

weighing me down

I'd like to be Europe right now. Or the mountains. Or somewhere warm. Warm European mountains, maybe? They probably don't exist, at least not right now. Maybe Chile or Argentina has warm mountains right now, hmm.

It's that time of the semester again when I'm stressed. Stressed about finishing assignments, stressed about family, stressed about money, stressed about not having enough direction, stressed about not be able get into all my spring classes yet, stressed about not having enough sleep. Basically, I'm just letting it all get to me, once I get stressed about one thing, then everything piles on top of me. I need to say no to this pattern. I need to get a massage that I still have a gift certificate for.

Thanksgiving and Christmas stress me out right now. I'm looking forward to having a nice long break in just another few weeks, I guess. Advent begins soon. This will be good, I need to remember what I'm hoping for, and the hope and salvation and kingdom that already exists now and is coming.

I'm going to go eat some sushi. And study the WAIS-IV. And read some words of hope. And sleep for a solid 8 hours.

Europe still sounds really nice.


Cara said...

Actually, I think Chile's and Argentina's mountains are cold too. All year I think. *Debbie Downer wah wah*

I talked to you, so I'm glad I know you feel much better about all of this. Man, sushi helps every time.

I'll be praying for you, love.

The Pensive Poet said...

Ug, stress. From Cara's comment, I take it you're feeling better. I'm so glad. Sometimes just writing/talking it out helps. And just think: before you even blink, finals will be all over and you'll be back at home hanging out with friends and family full-time!!

Europe does sound nice, though. There's something a little bit slower about life in Europe. People breathe there. And look at beautiful scenery at every given moment. Yesterday, the memory of that young American Art professor came to mind. Europe is stealing away to breathe and create and laugh and play and do all the things you love most. At least, that is Europe for you and me.