Sunday, April 13, 2008

you were happy

"I don't know if this will make you feel better, but you were in my dream last night and you were happy."

Thanks for putting up with the emo-ness of my previous blog. It's been a rough week, but things are getting better. Physically and emotionally I'm feeling better and I'm starting to gain more peace about what has happened. It still hurts, but I feel hopeful. I really do believe that this was from God and the right thing for both of us, and I truly believe that God has good things in store for me. Very good things. Thank you so much for the kind words and prayers, and if those could continue, then that would be awesome. Ya'll are truly wonderful - just knowing that I have friends who care about me and support me helps tremendously.

I know that a time when come soon when I will be free from hurt and loneliness and confusion. There will soon be a time when I feel completely content and satisfied and know that I'm not lacking anything. Even if that time only exists in others dreams and precious moments of peace and clarity in the present, I will soon look in the mirror, smile, and say, "I am happy."

"You were in my dream last night and you were happy."


kyle said...

hey there, just catching up on previous posts.

I know we're only casual acquaintances over the blogosphere, but I'd like to say that I hope things work out well and fast with you. I've been there before and it was horrid and awkward and painful and I was surprised by myself in the end (in both good and bad ways). Friends will help, as will that one constant that you knew before the pain (for me it's The Beatles).

Good luck, enjoy the oncoming beautiful weather, and rest assured that you're showing up happy in other peoples dreams. it won't hurt for too terribly long.

if walled in climb up said...

i'm so glad you're feeling better. and that you have a positive attitude about it. maybe in the future you will understand.

love you and miss you.

Martha Elaine Belden said...

great post, kelly :)

and i love the notion of being happy in someone's dream. what a beautiful thing to say.

whoever told kelly that... i like you.

Laura said...

Wow, after reading your post I was really happy, and am even happier with reading the comments here too.

May you find more of those moments...or rather, may more of those moments find you...hope they stumble into your life real soon.