I think I've mentioned my church on here a few times, but I don't know if I can emphasize enough what a meaningful experience it has been for me the last few months to connect with community. Last night, in my small group, a family that I've gotten close to shared some really personal things that are going on with them, and asked for our input and prayers. This is the second time in the past month that they've shared about these things, and I know they were really encouraged by our support the last time they shared about it. After some discussion about everything, our leader, Brock, initiated a prayer time for them saying, "I think you guys know based on the response last time you shared, that we all love you."
For the past few months, I've been praying and thinking a lot about how I can love this group of people. I think I've acted loving towards them, treated them in ways that look like love, and really genuinely cared about them and enjoyed them. But when Brock made the statement about us loving them, it all clicked. I really, truly love them, and I let the reality of that state sink in. I've talked to people who are in love, and they can usually recall the exact moment in their relationship when they realized that they were in love with the other person. Last night was my moment for these people. I've been in a relationship with them for the past six months, and last night it all hit me, "I do love them!"
It's hard to describe what that moment felt like. It's as if my soul was welling up inside me, fountains of water gushing out of me, about to burst, then an exhale, and my soul landed inside me, safe and secure and peacefully settled and planted in the knowledge of that love.
(How do I embed youtube videos into my blog? I've tried this before, but no luck.)