Saturday, April 21, 2007

finally got a piece of the pi

Well, it's been a bit of a dry writing spell for me as well. Twice since I last posted, I've started to write a new post, but haven't succeeded in finishing one. First, I tried to write about my frustrations in choosing between the two programs that had accepted me and my doubts about whether or not I should even be going into a doctoral program. Since starting that post, I've made my decision and my doubts are diminishing. The doubts are still there, but I've been given this opportunity that few are afforded and I'm not going to let a few doubts take it away from me. I have faith that God has given me just enough knowledge and wisdom and passion to take this next step that's in front of me. What will become of it, I don't know, I just feel that based on my limited view, this is what's next, and it's exciting and a little scary. Most days, I feel more excited than scared.

Then, I tried to write about the beauty of the world that I noticed around me. I tried to write about the vivid colors of the clouds, sky, and grass, and I wanted to tie it into recent thoughts about how colors affect me. I think I just got tired when I was typing and couldn't keep my thoughts together. Maybe there's still a good post in there somewhere.

Maybe it's a good thing that I haven't been posting. Maybe my writing has been dry, but my life certainly hasn't been. Maybe it means that I've been busy living, making decisions instead of agonizing over them, being there for my family, working plenty of hours, preparing and giving a presentation, visiting my cousin, spending lots of time with friends.

Maybe next week I'll feel inspired to write something. Or maybe I'll post a poem that I wrote about a month ago.

Until then, hey, isn't this kind of expensive for a piece of pi? This was too clever not to photograph and share :)


Cara said...

it was really nice seeing you last week, kelly. you should post that poem!

if walled in climb up said...

Goodness, I hear ya about living first and blogging second. In fact, I'm pretty sure that that is a profound rule of writers--they must truly live in order to obtain material to write about. Glad you're having fun just being alive. I know I am. :)

Martha Elaine Belden said...

hahha... i love that! people need to be more creative like that more often :) it makes life more fun.

and don't worry... write when you're ready. we'll be here :) can't wait to hear what you've decided and what those next few steps will look like.

if walled in climb up said...

Have you ever been lonely simply because you miss a person? Shawn has had a lot of homework this week, and we haven't been able to hang out much since we went climbing/camping. I guess I was just missing him.

Maybe I was missing my Kelly a bit, too. I definitely owe you a phone call, and may have to "settle the debt" tomorrow. ;) Sorry it's taken a while. Hope life is good. And I definitely miss you more than just a little! I love my Kelly. :)