Looking back an unposted blog entries, I found this from September 24th, 2008 -
"I want to stop just reacting. Something happens, and I react and respond. Someone says something, and my mind goes off in an unhealthy tangent and starts making meaning out of what that person said, and then I react to that meaning that I create.
I want to be more than just a set of stimulus and responses. I want to choose, I want to act deliberately. I want to have a plan and a course."